December 31, 2005

Fatherhood emotions

It is a commonly known psychological fact that one of the hardest persons to know is oneself. Why do you think self-help and self-discovery books are so popular. If we can all find the buddha in ourselves, we'd be much better off... Etc, etc, etc. Where I was going with this was an observation I have made about myself. I am realizing that with the birth of Priya, I am getting more and more 'emotional'. That, in the sense, that I hit emotional highs and lows more quickly, and feelings are more sharply defined. Women, are probably more used to feeling this way, but to me it is a strange new way of being. Now I don't know if I was always like this, but never realized it, or if this is something new. Aha... now the opening of this paragraph makes sense. :-)

My latest weepy moment was while watching King Kong. For crying out loud... As I was going to complete that sentence, I was struck by the irony of it. Anyway. For crying out loud, falling apes from tall buildings should not normally cause emotional swellings in me. Maybe it was the background score, maybe it was felt loneliness of both the characters (wait.. can an ape be a "character"?), or
whatever... But throughout the movie I was feeling tuggings on my heartstrings.

So last day of 2005. I feel obliged to summarize it. Does "a lot happened" do an adequate job? The biggest event of all, of course, was the birth of Priya. Most others are corollaries of that. There, that should do it.

Oh. I had to show this picture. Here's Priya surrounded by Christmas gifts. Most of those are actually hers. Can we say doting grandparents? :-)

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Deep Bipin, Deep!

I think i can feel a "change in emotion" since Connor was born. I know i am SO MUCH MORE protective, concerned, and easily manipulated by anything he does ... he's just too adorable to ignore :)

So, i don't think anything wrong with the change of emotions ... however, crying at King Kong? I've not seen it yet, but really! ... hehe!

thanks for sharing.

Anonymous said...

WOW Priya is hidden...man oh man!!

Nice thoughts Bipin. When will we see you guys again, now that we are no longer LWC goers?? Soon I hope.

Anonymous said...

I have 3 kids and just thinking of them can get me going. I haven't seen KK yet but I got a big lump in my throat when I went to see "Narnia"
does that count?...

Bipin Sen said...

hi cal,

i missed reading your comments! glad to see you back! hey aything that brings lumps in throats counts!

:-)

Anonymous said...

daaang... can i come for Christmas next year?